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lavandarlizard2I cleaned off my computer desk. I like to do that once a year, whether it needs it or not. ^_^
I always find all manner of things amongst the landfill. Today it was my purple nail polish and a star ear cuff. And a couple of 100-yen pieces. And a tabletop. Will wonders never cease. 0.0
I even cleaned and sorted through clothes I no longer wear, so my "junk" corner is getting smaller. Of course, my bed is piled three feet high, but hey, that's what floors are for... ~_^
Onward.>>>>>
BFB - 087g - Strange Days V
“I’m sorry that fool upset you,” said Wufei after a few minutes. “He’s just an idiot; he didn’t mean anything... Well, anything beyond his own urges.”
Duo looked over at him. “It just startled me... I don’t know why it scared me...”
Wufei hesitated, but decided to go ahead. “You went through something terrible, Duo; it’s only natural that you would be... skittish for a while. You don’t trust anyone right now.”
Duo said nothing for a bit, then; “I don’t like being skittish; that’s for horses. But it feels like someone else is directing me. Like there’s someone else inside my head.”
“That’s the way I feel sometimes,” Wufei murmured. “When I lose my temper. It’s like I’m two different people. I don’t want to hurt anyone – certainly not you! But everything else just dissolves and what’s left is... rage.”
Duo touched his arm. Wufei hadn’t talked to anyone about his therapy, and Duo hadn’t asked, because Wufei was so embarrassed at having to go in the first place. “So... It’s helping? The therapy, I mean...”
“I... I think it might be,” he admitted quietly. “I’ve figured out some of the things that set me off; the physician seems to find that a good sign. And I am learning the difference between anger and rage. I can be angry without being homicidal, apparently.” He snorted in dark amusement. “If I couldn’t, I probably would have shredded that idiot upstairs. But instead all I did was rattle the space between his ears.” He caught the tiny smirk on Duo’s lips. “Dragons know there’s nothing *else* between those ears.”
“Trowa’s fond of him.”
~ Trowa is fond of a lot of unworthy things, ~ muttered a snide little voice in Wufei’s head. ~ Not the least of which is you. ~
~ Well aware of that, thank you, ~ he snarled back.
“Well, that may just prove that there’s no accounting for a cat’s taste,” he snorted to Duo. “Hey, would you like some real food?”
“As opposed to...?”
“That dining hall swill.”
“But Tiffany expects you back...”
“After you’ve been fed and delivered safely to your rooms. She said nothing about where I should feed you.”
“Chinese?”
“Pick-up Stix?”
“Yeah!”
+~+
Obviously, neither of us was considering the possible ramifications of Duo’s first trip into town after his abduction. I’ve already kicked myself around a few blocks for not seeing what being surrounded by Humans could mean for the Banshee.
Oh, he didn’t freak out and start blowing people up right and left; it was much more heartbreaking than that. He just... endured. I didn’t even see it at first; I was checking the menu and ordering. It wasn’t until I turned around to hand him the drink cup that I saw how pale he’d gotten and how dark his eyes were, and I realised that we were standing in the middle of a Human restaurant only days after he had returned to work.
“Duo? I can have them box it to go; do you want to wait in the car?”
“No,” he said hoarsely, obviously struggling. “I have to-to get past this! I’ll be okay...”
He was staring at the group of people crowding around the drink machine.
“Here; you sit, and I’ll get your drink.” I led him to a booth where he could sit with his back to the wall and see the rest of the room. I *have* learned something after being around Heero all these years. And while standing at the drink machine, I realised that Duo was watching me intently. That rotten female had drugged his drink... I made sure to keep my movements broad and obvious. I didn’t cover the cup, but brought a lid and the straw still in its paper. I didn’t add sugar to his tea either; just brought a handful of packets.
“Thanks, Wufei,” he murmured when I set the cup in front of him. “Sorry I’m being so...”
“Don’t say it. Not your fault; *her* fault for being such a duplicitous rotten –“
“Fei. Don’t. It just makes it... harder.”
I just shut up and waited for our food, watching helplessly as my Bans-... my friend wrestled with the demons of his own mind.
...tbc...
I always find all manner of things amongst the landfill. Today it was my purple nail polish and a star ear cuff. And a couple of 100-yen pieces. And a tabletop. Will wonders never cease. 0.0
I even cleaned and sorted through clothes I no longer wear, so my "junk" corner is getting smaller. Of course, my bed is piled three feet high, but hey, that's what floors are for... ~_^
Onward.>>>>>
BFB - 087g - Strange Days V
“I’m sorry that fool upset you,” said Wufei after a few minutes. “He’s just an idiot; he didn’t mean anything... Well, anything beyond his own urges.”
Duo looked over at him. “It just startled me... I don’t know why it scared me...”
Wufei hesitated, but decided to go ahead. “You went through something terrible, Duo; it’s only natural that you would be... skittish for a while. You don’t trust anyone right now.”
Duo said nothing for a bit, then; “I don’t like being skittish; that’s for horses. But it feels like someone else is directing me. Like there’s someone else inside my head.”
“That’s the way I feel sometimes,” Wufei murmured. “When I lose my temper. It’s like I’m two different people. I don’t want to hurt anyone – certainly not you! But everything else just dissolves and what’s left is... rage.”
Duo touched his arm. Wufei hadn’t talked to anyone about his therapy, and Duo hadn’t asked, because Wufei was so embarrassed at having to go in the first place. “So... It’s helping? The therapy, I mean...”
“I... I think it might be,” he admitted quietly. “I’ve figured out some of the things that set me off; the physician seems to find that a good sign. And I am learning the difference between anger and rage. I can be angry without being homicidal, apparently.” He snorted in dark amusement. “If I couldn’t, I probably would have shredded that idiot upstairs. But instead all I did was rattle the space between his ears.” He caught the tiny smirk on Duo’s lips. “Dragons know there’s nothing *else* between those ears.”
“Trowa’s fond of him.”
~ Trowa is fond of a lot of unworthy things, ~ muttered a snide little voice in Wufei’s head. ~ Not the least of which is you. ~
~ Well aware of that, thank you, ~ he snarled back.
“Well, that may just prove that there’s no accounting for a cat’s taste,” he snorted to Duo. “Hey, would you like some real food?”
“As opposed to...?”
“That dining hall swill.”
“But Tiffany expects you back...”
“After you’ve been fed and delivered safely to your rooms. She said nothing about where I should feed you.”
“Chinese?”
“Pick-up Stix?”
“Yeah!”
+~+
Obviously, neither of us was considering the possible ramifications of Duo’s first trip into town after his abduction. I’ve already kicked myself around a few blocks for not seeing what being surrounded by Humans could mean for the Banshee.
Oh, he didn’t freak out and start blowing people up right and left; it was much more heartbreaking than that. He just... endured. I didn’t even see it at first; I was checking the menu and ordering. It wasn’t until I turned around to hand him the drink cup that I saw how pale he’d gotten and how dark his eyes were, and I realised that we were standing in the middle of a Human restaurant only days after he had returned to work.
“Duo? I can have them box it to go; do you want to wait in the car?”
“No,” he said hoarsely, obviously struggling. “I have to-to get past this! I’ll be okay...”
He was staring at the group of people crowding around the drink machine.
“Here; you sit, and I’ll get your drink.” I led him to a booth where he could sit with his back to the wall and see the rest of the room. I *have* learned something after being around Heero all these years. And while standing at the drink machine, I realised that Duo was watching me intently. That rotten female had drugged his drink... I made sure to keep my movements broad and obvious. I didn’t cover the cup, but brought a lid and the straw still in its paper. I didn’t add sugar to his tea either; just brought a handful of packets.
“Thanks, Wufei,” he murmured when I set the cup in front of him. “Sorry I’m being so...”
“Don’t say it. Not your fault; *her* fault for being such a duplicitous rotten –“
“Fei. Don’t. It just makes it... harder.”
I just shut up and waited for our food, watching helplessly as my Bans-... my friend wrestled with the demons of his own mind.
...tbc...
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Date: 2005-01-31 12:29 am (UTC)Wufei is so sweet to Duo, there seems to be no anger management problems there, eh? Poor Duo, he just hates feeling weak.
Are we going to get the chance to see Julie turned into a wyvern snackie sometime soon? Or maybe not, I would hate for some poor wyvern to get all grossed out on her disgusting carcass, she'd probably rate up there somewhere with evil okra on the barf-me-out scale.
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Date: 2005-01-31 03:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-31 04:03 am (UTC)Wufei is working very hard in his therapy; he *really* doesn't want to hurt anyone. Except maybe Rowdy at the moment...
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Date: 2005-01-31 04:10 am (UTC)But Wufei gets to have some fun. He gets to go home and have a word or two with Rowdy... That'll be an ii kibarashi.
...I wonder if I could catch the flu before tomorrow morning...?
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Date: 2005-01-31 12:42 pm (UTC)Oooooh... A Wufei/Rowdy scene? That should be fun! With or without Trowa in attendance?
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Date: 2005-01-31 01:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-31 01:17 pm (UTC)Or not. ^.^
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Date: 2005-01-31 01:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-31 01:40 pm (UTC)You gonna be able to make it to work? *fusses over you*
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Date: 2005-02-01 01:33 am (UTC)You know that saying about old age and treachery beating youth and enthusiasm? They don't tell you that the treachery is your own body attacking you! ~_~
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Date: 2005-02-01 04:01 am (UTC)Some of the other people in therapy acted like a full knee replacement was easier to recover from, because (as it was presented to me) all the parts that hurt... are gone. O.o;;
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Date: 2005-02-02 04:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-02-09 09:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-02-10 01:38 am (UTC)>.< ...and the hamsters who are going to be Sunday dinner if they don't stop teasing me...
...thank you for asking... *sigh*
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Date: 2005-02-10 01:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-02-10 02:55 am (UTC)I know, I know, it's a lame attempt at cheering you up. Maybe fry up some hamsters, they're great with a little soy sauce!