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I've gotta stop setting goals for myself. Every time I do, I end up blowing them to hell and gone. >.< So, yeah, only about two weeks late with this, but I kinda have an excuse, due to Real Life crap. Or not. Okay, mostly a touch of writers' block. Seems to be lifting now - knock on wood products - so we'll see how it goes. ^__^

At least the weather is somewhat cooler - false autumn before one last punch from summer. Cooler weather and non-winter is good. ^__~

Anyway, we have arrived at Duo's showdown with the minder. ^__^

BFB – Part 105 – Satisfaction

I slept like a log that night. Probably helped a lot that Heero gave me more than a bit of exercise. Mustn't forget the beer, either.

Heero muttered something about the sleep of the righteous, but I ignored him. I had to meet Q at 0700 to storm the Probation Department. I even dressed in my most flamboyant Banshee drag. I wanted that vile woman to know exactly who she'd been arguing with. Hopefully, it would scare her for the future.

I mentioned that to Heero when he whistled at my legs. He seemed to think she wouldn't recognize a Magical Creature if one bit her on the ass, so I asked if Heero could come with. He laughed and said he'd be more than happy to take a chunk out of her if he felt she asked for it. He dressed normally, though. He doesn't need fancy clothing when he can turn into a Dragon at an instants' notice.

I wasn't the only one to go for over-the-top formality; Q showed up in the hallway outside of the office wearing the most glittery, glowy, sparkly and brocade-y costume ever.

“You've been raiding the costume room for the Thousand and One Arabian Nights film,” I laughed and he preened a bit.

“Belonged to my mother's grandfather, actually. I really prefer cleaner lines, but we're here to make a point, as well as to take a flame-thrower to someone's ass. I will not tolerate such gross and deliberate insubordination,” he growled.

I was a little surprised to see Cranky Badger in the office. She greeted us with a sigh and a smile.

“Sorry she was such a pain in the ass, and that you couldn't get a hold of me. Family crisis,” she finished sourly. “She's scheduled for 0800 today, but she's usually late. Care for some coffee?”

We all answered in the affirmative and she motioned to an intern, who promptly vanished. Heero raised an eyebrow and Cranky Badger said, “You didn't think I would give you the abomination that drips into our coffee pot, did you? He's picking up my Starbucks order.”

I snickered. I like Cranky Badger.

“So,” she began with a sigh, “What's the plan?”

“Ah, I believe I will simply read her termination notice and wait for her to respond,” Q said slyly. “I am sure she will respond in an inappropriate manner, aren't you?”

“She certainly doesn't seem to care how or even if she does her job.”

Date: 2016-09-16 08:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"I've gotta stop setting goals for myself. Every time I do, I end up blowing them to hell and gone"

A friend of mine was recently smashed hard by depression. Like... really badly. She's a writer professionally, and she found she couldn't write. but she got back up on the horse and set a deadline. And missed it. Then another deadline, and missed that one too. She passed 3 or 4 deadlines, before she finally finished.

She said that part of the key was just to not think of it as failure, but just another step of progress. Even if you miss a deadline, yu're probably further than you were before. <3

Date: 2016-09-17 05:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ah, like with sewing - you don't make a mistake, you just create a new style. ^__^ Unfortunately, I seem to have stepped into a quicksand of depression and slogging my way out is just exhausting.

Insomnia has become my friend lately. I can't sleep, so I just open a file and meander my way through it until I feel sleepy. (I'd work on my yarn stuff, but I fear making many new 'styles' if I try that.) This is a cycle that I've been through many times, eventually there is an end to it. ^__^

Date: 2016-09-17 05:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hahaha, exactly. :) New style, I like that :)

By the way, I hope I didn't make you feel like I was marginalizing your depression or anything --depression is HARD and nothing looks more difficult than that muddy road back up. But you can do it. You're strong and wonderufl, even if your feet slide a little sometimes :)

I think it was ursula Vernon who gave me one of my favorite mantras for The Difficult TImes "One day, this, too, shall pass."

In the mean time, try to ENJOY your meandering through your files, rather than worrying that you didn't wander faster. :)

(on a side note... I don't normally offer 'home remedies' but this one has worked SO well for me. If yo go to amazon and look up "Solgar Liquid Calcium Magnesium Citrate" there's some stuff there that you'll find. Take a table spoon of that right before bed and it, at least for me and my friends, makes you sleepy, makes you rest better. Plus, most of us don't get enough magnesium in our life. Bottle will last you like a month or two. Anyway, sorry to "advertise" but man, maybe it'll help, maybe it won't.)

Have a great day -- I"m off to bed <3

Date: 2016-10-03 08:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I kind of like Scarlett O'Hara - "Tomorrow is another day." ^__^

I'm scrambling my way up at the moment. Insomnia is still with me, but by emptying a storage room last week, I cleared a lot of what was weighing me down. Not gonna get too hopeful, but it's hard not to.

Um... Isn't magnesium citrate the stuff they make you drink before a colonoscopy? O.o I am not on speaking terms with that stuff, thank you. I go with diphenhydramine and it works unless I'm particularly twitchy.

My therapist is from the school of "get up and do something else until you feel sleepy, then go to bed." Most times that works. ^___^ My mindless crochet project is moving right along with that. The Bro is going to be quite surprised come xmas.

Date: 2016-10-03 08:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
It's funny how cleaning the physical world can have a similar effect on the emotional one. And it's okay to be hopeful -- when you look at a clean room, you see that there's a lot of potential :) and you compare it to what it was, and feel pleased with the differences. It's not the same room, anymore, in some ways.

AS for magnesium citrate.... yes! It is what you take before a colonoscopy. You drink about 7 to 10 fluid ounces of it on an empty stomach and it results in a laxative effect. The stuff I linked, you take about 1 tablespoon before bed. :) I've NEVER had it cause a .. uh... rumbley or unpleasant reaction. And my stomach gets angry because I *eat* somedays.

The more important part of the magnesium is that most people in america don't eat enough magnesium-containing foods (green veggies, certain nuts and sheets, and some whole grains) (like, only 32% of people eat enough magnesium every day, and actual DEFICIENCY is in up to 15% of the population.) It tends to help with stuff like migraines, high blood pressure, muscle spasms, anxiety and stuff. So... this is more of a vitamin/mineral supplement than a soporific.

Anyway! If you're not on speaking terms, you're not on speaking terms... adnd waht works for me doesn't work for you, and that's okay :)

Yay mindless crocheting projects :) I should take up my abandoned knitting/crocheting from last winter, but it's just so warm still...

Date: 2016-09-16 11:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Real life can be a pain and so can writer's block. But when you combine tht two.... yikes!

Anyway, I'm just so happy to see this. And I want to MUCh to see Duo's and Q's outfits.
Love it.

Date: 2016-09-17 05:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yep. I feel like I may be inching my way out. Seems like this particular feeling is familiar. ^__^ Knock on wood products...

I find myself wondering if Q was wearing pointy-and-curling toed shoes. ^__^ Maybe I can get my imagination to zoom in. *snicker*


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